Living as a 'normal student'

Tak tahulah macam mana aku boleh bertahan for almost three years without being active in any society and organization. Entah mana dapat courage untuk tahan rasa membuak-buak jadi seorang yang hidupnya tak jejak tanah sepanjang masa, tekejar-kejar dengan masa, berlawan dengan tekanan dan hidup serupa zombie. Jujur, sebenarnya susah nak adapt dengan masa yang terlampau free sampai satu tahap tak tahu nak buat apa.  My social circle is my meeting and event. Out from that, I am literally alone. Tapi sebab rasa bosan going through the same life for almost 8 years with the exact routine, I give up that life  in my undergraduate. Walaupun ramai orang paksa suruh masuk itu ini, jadi itu ini, I just can't give my commitment like I used to. Ramai orang kata masa belajar dekat universiti ni lah kita kena participate, be active apa semua untuk bina leadership skill. Dan sepatutnya, orang yang dah ada pengalaman, patut terus advance lagi. But not in my case. Most of my friends back in high school would be surprised to know if I told them that I am no longer busy, restless, stressful Asyiqin that they used to know.

Tipu lah kalau kata hati ni tak rasa cemburu tengok orang pegang jawatan sana-sini, sibuk dengan meeting hari-hari. Sebab half of my life, as far as I live now, itulah makanan jiwa sehari-harian. But I choose this way. Sebenarnya nak uji ketahanan diri untuk tengok mampu tak lalui tekanan yang orang anggap remeh like deal with groupmates, kawan-kawan sebaya yang lain personaliti. Never did I know, it has so much stress to deal with. Especially when you work with people who do not know your working standard and start giving you judgement of being so meticulous over small assignments and homeworks. Being a 'normal student' has taught me a lot. Some people may say that I've lost my joy of living as an undergrad student, because my life is only revolved between classes,lectures,room and home. But looking on the bright side, I am free to do things that I like whenever I want. I am never being restricted by tight weekend schedule that does not allow me to go out with my friends and spend time with my family members. 

Pernah dengar pepatah "ular menyusur akar, tidak hilang bisanya"? Give me some rest for about 1 year more, and I'll be back in action and will never take a rest. Insya-Allah.

Oh, another reason why I sort of giving up being in organization is because of them. Tak jumpa lagi team macam ni, the most awesome team I've worked with so far. Walaupun ni zaman sekolah menengah, tak ada team lagi yang boleh kalahkan proses pembelajaran and kematangan yang diperolehi sepanjang bekerja dengan dorang. Tak tipu.

BWP 2008/2009