:'(

oh, still, i am that weak

i thought i'm strong

but no, it's wrong

until now, i can't hear any story

i can't read any words

i will feel very sad

O Allah

help me 

so that i can get rid this feeling from my heart and mind

i know it's not my luck. 

i know there will be my time 

but i still want to cry when hear or read all those stories

the happiness, the eagerness,

O Rabbi, please give me strength

strength to live

strength to accept your fate

Ya Dzaljalaliwalikram, please give me your calamity. 

aminnn.